封闭的修女

Liliana(35),apoorgirlwhocannotadaptandfindajobdespiteheruniversitydegree,livesattheexpenseofherblinduncle,togetherwithherparentsandsister.ShehasbeenapassionatefanofafamousYugoslavmusiciansincechildhood,whenshedreamedofmeetinghimforthefirsttime.AsLilianagrewup,thispassiontransformedintoanobsessionthattookcontrolofherlife,constantlyisolatingherfromotherpeople.Atoneoftheconcertsheldinherhometown,Lilianatriestobreakthroughthecrowdandinsteadofanautographshegetsastrongblowtoherback,almostparalyzingher.Inhospital,whilebrowsingtheinternet,shefindsoutthatthatthemusician’shealthblossomsandthathislovelifeisgood,sosheangrilycurseshim-iftheycan’tbeboundbylove,thenhemustexperiencethepainthatshefeels.Herconnectionwiththemusicianseemstobestrongerthanherparentsthink,becauseshesoonreadsinthenewspaperthatthemusicianfellfromatreeandhadtoundergobacksurgery,associatinghismisfortunewiththespellsandcursesshedirectedathim.Feelingresponsibleforwhathappenedtotheloveofherlife,Lilianatriestofindawaytoaskforhisforgiveness,writingtohisacquaintancesontheinternet,desperatelyseekingtoconnecttothemusician,butnoonewantstohelpher,consideringhertobeinsane.TheonlypersonwillingtohelpherintheattempttocontactthemusicianisVera,apopsingerwhocollaboratedwiththemusicianinthepast.Veraadviseshertouseherliterarytalentandwriteabookaboutherlifetostandoutfromtheendlessgroupoffans.However,Lilianaisunabletowritealightandpopularreadwithamessagethateveryonewillbeabletoidentifywith,anddisturbingdetailsfromherpast,relatedtorapeandattemptedsuicide,springfromhernovel.HorrifiedbythethingsLilianawritesabout,Veraforceshertothrowoutallthepainfulepisodesfromthebook,underthepretextthatnobodywantsasadwomanasapartner.Convincedthatsheknowstherecipeforsuccess,VerapersistentlytriestochangeLilianaaccordingtoherpattern,butthemodeloftheartist-starletwithapromiscuouspastdoesnotseemappropriateforagirlwithalifetimeboundbyreligiousprinciples.VeraishesitantabouttherealitythatLilianatriestoprocessthroughherbookbecausesherecognisesherselfinLiliana’stragicstoryandproblems,whichLilianabeginstorealisewhenshediscoversVera’spastandexperiences.Therelationshipofthetwowomen,basedonsincerecompassion,becomesanincreasinglyviolentgameofpower,astruggletoimposeanidentitythatVeraskillfullyhidesbehindhermask.BecauseofthefeelingthatthiswholetimeVerahasledherintodebauchery,Liliana’shatredtowardsherbecomessostrongthatshewishestocurseher.